Well, the title should be explanatory enough.

I don't know what to say here, really. I keep writing things and thinking they sound too whiney. All that needs to be said, I think, is that I've been dealing with increasingly severe depression and anxiety over the last year or so. If you've ever experienced similar, you should know how I feel, and if you haven't, well, then I wish I was that strong.

Art used to be my escape, my way to lose myself and express myself and have fun. I don't know if I take myself too seriously now or I've simply outgrown this website or what, but every time I sit down to draw I find I'm simply exacerbating my own unhappiness. Even when I do finish work I'm proud of and submit it, I seem to find every way to suck the happiness from it, for the most stupid, trivial reasons. I just... don't like it. Anymore. There's not much else to say besides that, honestly.

I don't know if I'll be coming back. At this point in my life I have no idea what to expect to happen in the future, nor if it will end up impacting me positively or negatively. If things start going great again then yeah, most likely I'll try and fire up this account again. If not, well, I already cut my losses here. You'll know when I do.

If you have a trade or commission or gift, any file I made for you that you would like to keep, please note me and I can give it to you to save. However, please do not ask me to send you random copies of X picture or Y game. I know I have a few outgoing commissions right now (3, I believe?) and I do intend to finish those up as quickly as my time allows. Once again I really must apologize for these taking so irritatingly long, I will fully understand if you want a refund or anything. If you are one of the aforementioned people who need my e-mail, note me. I'm not giving out contact information/other websites to random folks who ask. If you know where to find me, then you know where to find me, and if you don't, well, it's not that difficult.

Hopefully this doesn't start any drama or anything. I can't imagine it would, but you never really know with the internet. I'm not trying to fish for pity or pats on the back, I hope that's clear - if there's one thing I can't stand, it's hollow sympathy. I'm just trying to be honest with you all, because I do feel like I owe it to you. Never in my wildest dreams did I imagine that the awkward, bumbling Kaylink who joined in 2005 would grow into the awkward, bumbling Kaylink of 2012 who has such a fantastic base of watchers and friends. Seriously, I thank you guys with all the sincerity I can muster. Corny as it sounds, I did feel like part of the family here, and I met such fantastic people, got so many fantastic gifts and opportunities... it's unreal.

So, cheers to you all. It's been a fun ride, and I hope that, for you, it's far from over yet.

So long.