Shocking, I know. But I assure you things have been done and are continuing to be done. Unfortunately, most of time these things aren't art.
I managed to find full-time employment, which is a huge deal for me and I'm extremely grateful. I'm doing front desk work at a small local veterinary clinic, and I absolutely love it - I get to be around animals all day, my co-workers are entertaining, the work is engaging, and I'm learning so much about animal health and anatomy. It gets very frustrating and at times downright heartbreaking, but I am so happy to be working there and I hope they'll keep me around for quite a while longer.
But, not gonna lie, I've drawn literally nothing over the past two months. With my work now as an outlet for my energy, by the time I get home I just want to sit down, maybe play a game or two and then sleep. I've been having this same issue for the past year or two, but since I was in college at the time I didn't have the option to not create art. Now that art is back to being a hobby of mine I'm a lot happier... and have zero inclination to do anything artistic. And it's incredibly frustrating to me that those two things seem to be connected. In my head, I want to be productive and make art and finish my owed list and be creative, the ideas haven't gone away, but now it's all overshadowed by the fact that it is optional, not mandatory. I've always wanted to be someone who was happy making art, and the fact that it's now turned into something that I dislike doing is very disheartening. I want to want to make art, but even the thought of picking up my tablet gets immediately clouded over with negative emotions and it's all very melodramatic and whiny and bleh bleh bleh. You get the idea.
So I don't know if at this point it's a matter of just giving myself time away from art (I got incredibly burned out from my last semester at college and I don't know how long those effects last) and waiting until my subconscious decides it wants to be creative again, or accepting that I just no longer want to create art any more. I'm not going to force myself to do art if it no longer makes me happy, even if I wish I was able to. But I don't want to give up completely if this is something that just needs time to replenish itself.
So yeah basically don't expect a lot out of this account, in terms of activity. I promise if any great revelations happen or I make anything creative at all, you guys will be the first to know. But as of right now, I'm not forseeing a lot of... anything, really. I don't know. That's pretty much what it boils down to. I always feel bad for making those journals going "I'm back! I'm active! I'm gonna make art!" and then almost immediately after my energy crashes and I do nothing. Thanks for sticking with me if you choose to do so. I have some messages to respond to and I'll try to get to those soon.
TL;DR: Not feeling really artsy lately. I'll update if anything happens, but don't expect much of me for a while yet.